Day 21: What Is The Reason?

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Well, at least school is almost over for the semester. We keep getting informed that there's a high chance that the fall semester will be partly in class. Which is another added stress right now, as I don't really want to move back to Toronto when COVID19 is not slowing down. Granted, vaccines are slowly making their way through essential workers and those at risk. Though that doesn't mean that a rash decisions should be made. Like woah slow down guys!

I finally am alright with where I am in life. I enjoy my job at the thrift store in town, and I have never enjoyed a job before. I love volunteering at the animal shelter. Just remembering how it was for me being in Toronto in the beginning of the pandemic, I don't want to go back to that. For months I was searching for a job, and receiving money from the government, as I was a student, and I lost my job due to COVID19. You really lose hope when you graduate from a three year program, and there's no jobs. I couldn't even get minimum wage jobs working at grocery stores, which was one of the most dangerous places to be. It was depressing!

If I'm going to have to go back to Toronto in September, I'm going to lose the only minimum wage job I've ever liked. I'm going to be jobless, while having to pay for rent and groceries etc. While also having a greater fear of COVID19. At least now I'm in a small town and the cases are lower. Or they were extremely low until two guys from Toronto came and hosted a huge bonfire party in the area, they had COVID19 and infected so many people. Which then spread to the school systems and many places of employment in the area. Yes, I do have a job in a public place, and I do volunteer at a shelter, (my other two jobs are fine because one is mainly outside and I do it alone, and the other is at my dad's work where I only come in contact with him, as I usually clean when everyone has gone home.) I feel safe though, every time I leave the house.

I know that the colleges are good at keeping people distanced and safe in the school, and we are all adults so we SHOULD know how to wear our masks and keep our distance. Though, to me, making a living is essential, we all have bills to pay. But going into school in September does not seem essential to me. I know that eventually we will need to have some sessions in the school so that we can work with the cameras. As well as actually have hands on learning in some areas of which have touched on virtually but require in-class leaning. I also know that the board and professors know more about what's best for us, and what needs to be in-class. Though, I think that whatever needs to be in-class should be within our last semester. Also, I know in our last semester we have to complete our internship hours, so it would be nice to be in the city for that. As, if the majority of the population has received their vaccines by January, then it will be more safe to do internships in-person, which would be beneficial.

Agh. I just hope that the school sees the way that I do, so that I won't have to move last minute. I don't want to give up living for free, and my current employment just yet!

<<Me every time a prof says that we will probably be back in-class soon.

That's how I'm feeling today. Not much else to report.

Thank you for reading folks!

x

Kailee