Day 30: Everything And Nothing

A couple years before my nanny died, I remember a simple day, and a simple conversation. My other family members probably wouldn't even be able to recall this day, or this casual conversation. Which makes sense because, it wasn't anything special, just typical chitchat. My mom asked my nanny what she did in the morning before we arrived for our weekly visit. My nanny answered saying that she got a call from Richard, her godson. My mom had asked her what they were chatting about. My nanny answered casually, "Oh, everything. And nothing." I know it's a simple saying but I found it to be somewhat poetic. It sounds like a song. Or a romantic movie. It's a sweet saying because there are some people in our lives that we would be happy to talk about everything and nothing at all with. To my nanny, saying this probably was just like saying that they talked about a lot of stuff, but not all of it was important. To me though, the saying feels like, everything meaning big moments in life, and nothing being random words filling a space. But each word is magic. I know I read to much into simple sayings, but to me words can feel like magic.

Since this is my last diary entry, I want to do just that, I want to talk about everything, and nothing. I want to share the recent nothings in my life, and recap of the everythings that make me think, wonder, and dream.

So, I took a couple days off from writing. For one, I finally felt like I could chill out and stop running on full tilt. The thrift store has laid me off for the month, so I don't have to worry about getting all of my assignments in with so little spare time. I'm still working for my dad and doing papers, and volunteering but all of the above are only a couple hours a shift. So, for the last 2 ish weeks of school, I wont feel so crammed for time.

I also babysat my nephew on Friday, which left me super tired, kids really do me in. I'm typically a quiet natured human that doesn't like a lot of kerfuffle. Basically, the kid throws off my aura. However, It's the cuteness factor, and the unconditional love that binds family which draws me to him. Since I babysat on Friday, I wasn't able to go to feed my shelter cats, and that would have made for two weeks without seeing my cats! I just couldn't have it! So, I went yesterday afternoon instead. It turns out that mornings at the shelter are a lot more work than afternoons. I basically just cuddled cats for three hours, like what a dream! In the mornings we go in and clean out all of the cat rooms, feed the cats, and socialize with them for a bit, then we restock all the cat litter, blankets, towels, food etc. Yesterday afternoon I cuddled, and tried to get cats out of their shells, I got scratched many times! One cat, I was finally able to pet, then a couple seconds later, she scratched my bandaid right off my finger, like it was actually scratched so hard she cut it right off splitting the bandaid in half. Though I didn't give up. I grabbed a little toy springy thing that is probably 10 inches long, then I pet her with that. She was hesitant at first but then she started to purr and close her eyes. It's really rewarding, even if it takes a while to get them adjusted.

I'M QUITE SADDENED THOUGH. Lennon my baby cat has been adopted... He left before I could say goodbye, or snatch him and hide him in my room. I thought I was going to cry, but I didn't... Until I saw Karissa. Or Lennon 2.0. She is the sweetest thing! WHY. I literally sat on the floor with her and she came and laid down in my lap. NO. I was close to tears, because it felt like she was my cosmic connection. Like it was meant to be. I came home and showed my mom a photo of her, to no avail, cat allergy beats love of cats take 2. As much as I love going there, this constant heartbreak sucks. Though, I'm going to keep it while I'm in town, because what else do I have to live for? Just kidding. Sun flowers, writing, homemade vegan cookies, cake, camping, french fries, cats, dogs, and the few people in my life that feel like magic.

This summer should be pretty sweet though. Even though it's another Covid19 summer, I am still dreaming of warm days reading by the pool. Plus, a whole lot of writing. The fact is, the pandemic has left me soft of lost. All of the passions I once held so high, they often make me question if they were ever passions. The only thing that I'm left to hold onto is writing. Without it, I don't know how I would have coped through all of this. I have blocked out an idea for my third novel which I plan to write this summer. I really want to be a published author someday. It's the only thing that I see within my fantasized future clearly.

As a closing note, I want to recap the idea of my previous 29 posts. For the most part, I like to advocate ways to reduce our footprints, and reduce climate change. As much as I love writing fictional romance stories, In this setting where It's more about short posts rather than 300 page stories, I think it's important to also talk non-fiction. The environmentalist in me has also faded a bit since the beginning of the pandemic. Though, the importance of sharing whats going on in the world, and what you can do to be better humans is still important to me. I believe it always will be.

So, just please remember that one can make a difference, always. For the betterment of our world, try to reduce your meat and dairy intake, plant trees, if possible go solar or wind power, walk and bike-- try not to fly, use less plastic and packaging, and as your mama says "turn off the damn lights".

It's been nice having something to write almost daily, and I think I'm going to miss it. If I do, then I would like to continue writing posts. I don't think this is the end of Kailee the blogger.

It's been real.

Thanks for reading humans.

Keep dreaming.

Keep believing.

Everything will be dandy.

Just treat others with the kindness you would like to receive. We are all creatures of whatever it is each individual believes in. We all have life in common, so let's just love each other, and know that not everyone is perfect, and before you judge, know that everyone has been through tough times they don't speak about.

Before we go, lets end with some funny news stories, as I am a journalism student.

I can't with the remix^^

This one might be staged, but still it's funny!!

^This complication will be the last video, because I think this is all the world needs. HILARIOUS.

tHanKs For REadInG.

x

Kailee.